Monday, December 20, 2010

Sorry is in Order

Sorry I have been neglecting my poor blog, I meant to get to it but things have been crazy on my end. Hopefully after my exams I will be back to writing again. But to make up for it I will give a lay down on what has been happening:

I have been taking guitar lessons and by God how fun they are, my guitar is named Katherine Alice De Freak and I LOVE her. She is a Main Street Strat, she fades to a sort of orange color to the front, dark to the back. My teacher Blake is a funny guy, he says I have real potential which boosts me up. I'm making a plan to start paying for lessons since my grandmother is only paying for January.

School is school, my mom signed me up for the ACT in...Feburary I think, so I'm studing for that. Plus the CPT since I was such a good girl and passed my FCAT *throws up in trash can*, I can take it for free, so my senior year I can take college classes. Other than that I have to work on two papers over my Christmas break, which I am soooo loking forward to....NOT!

Anyway, I have several writing projects still in the making. I am also rewriting a lot of them so they are more organized, I am even in a contest for scholarships (yes that is on my plate now) so hopefully I do good for that. Plus I am getting into lots of RP's, I am currently in like six of them and they are so much fun.

I have few plans for post topics, some of them have to do with a novel in progress and few have to do with my characters, and few with these weird dreams I have had (I blame the meds, but they were cool).

Until then, this is Yuna signing out~

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Exit Stage Right

So sorry I’ve been neglecting the blog, quite a few changes have occurred. One I moved into my aunt’s house, I couldn’t really handle things at home (or rather either house) and I just had to get away. And so far it’s gone really well, I’m a lot more happy and much more at peace there. It’s just a safe place for me to be and to be around people that actually show concern for you is even nicer. It may not be permanent unfortunately but, if and when, I am forced to go back home I will be able to take things better. And my mom’s house, that’s where I need to apply it more.

In addition I just got through my school play and boy was it a rough ride. Our production of ‘The Good Doctor’ was overall good, even with the lack of time we had. The set itself was mostly a large book and since a few things went wrong with that, the time it took to finish was longer than expected. The actors themselves put on a great show, there’s something about hearing an audience laughing at the hilarious performance your friends are displaying can really set a warm and pleasant feeling throughout your body. But that’s what I feel, can’t say the same for the rest of the crew.

Now I was not part of the cast this time. In fact this is one of two plays I was actually in during the already three years of school. Besides Prometheus Bound—a Greek tragedy we performed, with me as one of the Twelve Daughters of the Ocean—I was actually part of the crew this time. Running Crew to be more specific, meaning I helped move the props around during the show. And as we had to blend in since there were not many blackouts, we had to dress as maids and servants. I wore a cute purple dress~

Anyway

I and the other Running Crew members had a blast though. In fact we had our own special question that we would ask every rehearsal (and most of the shows) more than once in a matter of minutes apart:

“Where’s Noah?”

Noah was the only freshman on the Running Crew. And the common knowledge we have for freshman, most are pretty immature. He kept disappearing whenever we turned our backs for more than a few seconds. We nearly ripped our hair out over it, but by the time the shows came around he straightened up thank God. He was mostly pared up with me when it came to moving some stuff. So it worked out.

Hmmmm….oh yeah. I’m planning on starting guitar lessons soon. I had a free lesson yesterday and by God there was something about holding that guitar that sent a shiver up my spine. I was listening so intently to what the instructor was saying and I caught on really quick on a few things. Now when I was looking at prices they had a special set for if your sign up for lessons. Hopefully I can start that soon, I’ve worked out the prices and everything and this really is something that I would REALLY stick to and can do. Good wishes are always appreciated.

For now that’s all I have to give. Maybe next time I can give something that I can really bring to here that can be further discussed and for you readers to be able to give an opinion on.

This is Yuna signing out~

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Friday, October 8, 2010

Music in the Air and English Blues

Another happy free day in Teachers Aid, this would be the second day now. Of course now on Fridays the school sets up a sound system and music is played throughout the courtyard, which makes the day more up lifting in a way. I wish though they would have a bit more of the classical rock feel, but it’s more like the stuff you hear on the radio these days. That’s why I like to go to one of my favorite teachers room, the cool Mr. O’Grady, because he has the most AWESOME playlists of classic rock I know of. I like to stroll by his room on the way to my Environmental Science class and just hang out there until the bell is close to sounding off. Sometimes he gives me little snacks, things from Jolly Ranchers to green grapes, enough said.

As it is even day here, I already went through my English 2 class. I’m starting to think that I need to readjust my sleep schedule a bit better, for I sort of fell asleep when we were reading ‘The Crucible’(one of my favorite plays). In addition to reading, we have a project to do on it. Let’s just say with that…

The people in my group SUCK (expect one person).

How it works is that there are four tables in the class and each table is to work together on whatever we were assigned for the project (there are four ‘groups’, each a different topic related to the play). My group is more about when Communism was a major problem then, since the situation at the time was fairly similar to the chaos in Salem. We each—there are six people in my group including me—are assigned different jobs; those looking up information, those (me) writing the important information so we can turn it into a PowerPoint, looking for pictures, and so on. And basically now, the project rests on the shoulders of me and one other person who actually wants a good grade on this.

Is it honestly too much to ask that we work together and get this damn thing done right? One person hardly shows up in the class half the time (whether their reasons are I don’t pry), and everyone else mostly just bitched about things and people around the school. I tried to get them to work, but they just wouldn’t, there was only one more person who actually made an effort to looking up information (if you can really call it EFFORT). And the person who was suppose to be doing the PowerPoint? Bailed on us.

Even if we have three weeks to finish this thing, at the hands of two people with other school work it might be a close call. I just honestly hate how people don’t want to make the commitment to the work when it counts for them as well, especially when it’s in one of my favorite classes.

Which brings me now to my Chorus class. It’s usually after my 1st or 2nd period classes that I actually wake up in a sense. We start off with either sight reading music or simple warm ups, then proceed to working on the songs we planned to sing for our concert. The songs are varied from one Japanese song, to several Christmas songs since the concert is in December. This class—as fun as it is—I take seriously. My buddy of the class is sort of becoming my instructor for proper singing presentation, and I am improving quite a bit I must say. I can hopefully get up a video of some funny moments around the class and school as well. I may even be doing a solo, exciting no?

And now…oh crap, bell just rang AGAIN. My timing is quite a jumble. More soon~

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Monday, October 4, 2010

At A Loss

Well it’s about 11:30 now….I’m back at my mom’s house and well mom and sister are gone (now it’s midnight and they came back). To be honest I didn’t really expect them to go out this late, even if it was to someone’s house that’s about 10 minutes by drive. Of course my brother didn’t want to stay here with me, so he called my dad (no surprise there) and had him come over and get him. They just left, leaving me with a 5$ bill and a feeling of solitude.

And I don’t even care anymore.

For now almost seven months (tomorrows the 7th month anniversary, woot) these sorts of events have become far too easy to predict that it’s almost funny. No one will listen to me when I send out simple fair warnings and in the end all I can do is shake my head in a sad way and think “What’s the point anymore?”

I first wanted to move in with my mother because I felt that if I stayed around to help out she might straighten up a bit. I’m staring to think now it might have been a mistake. Though I’m somewhat regretting it now, nothing really seems to be improving around here, only falling more short. Was it because I thought I could TRY and do good, or my stupidity got in the way of my judgment? Did I honestly think that things would really improve?

I won’t go into the details of what happens but trust me; they would annoy/upset anyone with a good head on their shoulders. I think mine is rotting because I feel like a bad one.

Anyway

With that, I’ve been even tossed feelings of guilt about moving in with her, curtsey of my father. For weeks when we were alone or with my siblings, he would say all kinds of nasty things that sort of scared us then act like nothing is wrong a few minutes later and start joking around. Does that seem right to you? I understand how much he is hurting, but guess what, so are the rest of us. It has affected him really bad, but he does not need to express this sort of behavior around us.

Either way, I shouldn’t bother complaining. I don’t really have anywhere else to go otherwise, I’m forced with ‘either or’ for parents. I do appreciate the support I have been getting from everyone, but…is it too much to wish that someone would get me away from all of this?

I could say more, but I suck giving saying what I mean sometimes. All I can do is ask for advice: What else can I do to make things better for myself?

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Friday, September 24, 2010

A Look Into the Future

This is Yuna live at the school library and I am just enjoying it at the moment! My 5th period teacher has been out for several days already and the stuff I’m suppose to grade, I already finish before the bell rings. Far too easy really, but that's because I was grading them as a completion grade. And the teacher’s laptop is locked but I have my solutions, the library is always my number one place if I need peace, quiet, or a computer to type on.

I don’t know why but being around books always gives me this fluttering feeling of pure joy, just the thought of being here makes me want to smile all the time. I’m so attached to them, heck I own almost three hundred of my own (did I say that in my bio….whatever, I’m proud of that fact anyway), so in other words I am very, very happy at the moment. It reminds me of the time I was looking at two books at Wal-Mart and I realized I could only buy one. Fortunate for me, my cousin from North Carolina was visiting and let’s just say when she told me she would buy the other one for me, I REALLY embarrassed her and my sister. And that was an amusing day, filled with personal triumph from my happy squeals ^_^

As far as what I am doing, I’m mostly thinking and planning over future projects that some are almost ready to begin and others that are in motion. So far my biggest is my RP’s, which currently I am in two and about to join one (I got sent a word doc for it….lots and lots of pages to read O.o). I’m doing well with keeping up with them, and writers block doesn’t seem to be affecting me like normal which I am ever so grateful for. These things are too damn fun!

Next is a story based off a series of characters made by my wonderful Rebecca. As she was telling me about it—describing each character and their woes—I suddenly got these floods of ideas and I just have to write it. I tried doing the same thing for another friend when I was in the 8th grade with her characters, it’s all planned and everything but it’s now a project needed redone (at least I still have the character sheets). Anyway, the story is falling into play and I am starting to write out the prologue, once I get more details about the characters I will make a post for what the story is about. A project that I am most excited about.

Next of course is my many…many…many short stories that I am trying to finish. Some are typed, some are written, and some written are ready to be typed out. Plus I am trying to finish two that were requests which I feel bad about not being able to continue working on -_-. Slowly but surely these will be done or my name isn’t Yuna! If you want to look at some that are up online, my deviant art page has those, poems, and even pictures and drawings.

Then there is one of my many personal projects that are much more chaotic to finish and always gets under my skin…singing projects. Once again there is the link to my YouTube but do heed the warning next to it. I’ve gotten plenty of good comments, but there is the occasional ones that point out mostly the flaws. News flash, the ones they comment on are from when I sucked even then, and had crappy equipment (before I discovered a good microphone and Audacity). I like to sing for fun, not for the fame. So if you want to comment make nice critique if you will. That’s all for that.

And of course besides whatever else I need done for school, I’m also in the making of designing tattoos. My sister’s friend saw me sketching my favorite knife (I’m not going to lie it turned out REALLY well) now he’s paying me to do his full arm. Then my parents and my sister want me to do the same, of course they are not paying. But oh well.

In other news things are not going back to the up and down factor, which makes me wonder if I could use for posts. I have a few planned already so they will come eventually.

And finally one, more question…

How the heck do I end up finish typing just as the bell rings, this is the third time already! And I seriously don’t want to go to math at the moment…*sigh*

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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Turning Over A New Leaf

Goodness me, so many new changes happening around here. Some good, some bad, and some that ended up just plain ugly, all almost completely unpredictable. Still is, but I’m learning how to deal with it better so I’m not so taken back by whatever happens next. Although to be honest, the situations in which I find myself in—whether by my own choice or not—seems to be getting worse somehow. All in which left me filled with harmful emotions that nearly took me to the edge of the abyss. What could be the cause of my emotional distress? Well it has to do with the one word that I’m pretty sure no kid ever wants to hear…

Divorce

Unfortunately, I’ve been dealing with this for about six months. I know that all that has happened is something that I can never erase from my mind because it was far too traumatizing, but I want to be able to go about my valuable time without having to remember the specific day where it went down hill. I sadly remember everything from the day, to the time, where I was, what was said, and how I felt (this I especially want to forget), otherwise I end up in a sort of depressed state for a day or so.

As to what happened, I may tell you guys about it, once it’s not so much of a sensitive subject. But it certainly led to far too much fighting than usual, nasty words shouted left and right, and often…oh I won’t get to the last part. Every now and then I let myself have a good cry to kind of get it out, and it helps in so many ways. How I can describe how I’m handling this, you could say I am sort of grieving for the things I lost. No more can my family be together like we had been before and it honestly leaves this terrible pain inside. Sure we were never the greatest family, but when it came to the fun times they seemed pure and real to me. Now that I look back it seems like it’s been nothing more than a illusion, I was naïve and blind to the reality underneath the good.

So I got that out. Now things are slowly(?) getting better, I finally got away from my old house—too many bad memories from a while back—and into a new house. Granted it is a bit small but it’s nice and perfect in a way. I actually plan on making a little video log and give a little tour of the place. I don’t know how many people would actually watch it but it’s worth a shot. :D

Let’s see what else…well…I got moved into American History Honors now. Same teachers just 1st and 3rd got switched. Other than that, that is all and once again I am posting just as the bell rang. XD

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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Rise of A New Era (yeah right)

A new year, a new blog. Actually my old one I had accidentally deleted (don’t ask me how it just happened lol) so this was born out of the ashes. But it’s alright; it’s time for something fresh anyway. So as I ponder over what to say in this post, I shall tell you of what has been going on these past few weeks.

So few know, I have finally reached my junior year of high school. I can tell you so far it is one lonely kick in the ass. Lonely is because my beloved friends had reached the end of their high school days and are now enjoying their days of college or whatever else they do. But I has my darling daddy/grandpa Becca, so it’s a mix of goodness and nostalgic love.

And a kick in the ass?

Yes, lots of stuff going on. My teachers this year are a pretty good mix of fun and seriousness, it is just too bad about how much the scheduling in the school got royally f***ed up. But we won’t worry about that. With that and now the school play, it is quite a hassle right?

Wrong.

With the play, I’m just part of the Running Crew. Meaning that I don’t have to be at any of the rehearsals until around October for tech rehearsals, my only job (actually it consists of me and two other people) is to move props around swiftly and silently during the actual show. Hopefully that I can do without problem, though I am a bit sad I’m not part of the actual cast I can suck it up. A positive side of this is that I can go to rehearsals anytime I wish…it’s just a matter of getting a ride home is the issue. But it’s nice to know that I can do something other than go home (if I can call it that any more) and be in a fun environment.

So with that it might be fun to tell all you readers about my schedule and classes. Granted the first day, things got switched around so I was practically lost on the first day, because I’m just that silly. For those who don’t know how my school works, we have odd and even days. Odd days are periods 1, 3, 5 (this one we have every day), and 7. Even days are 2, 4, 5, and 6. Enough said, here is the list of places I have to be for six hours a day, starting with odd days:

1st, American History: Apparently the room I’m in is the old detention room, which made me laugh when I heard that. My teacher is a sweet lady, she taught middle school kids before, not sure how she got into the high school business. The work she gives us is really easy so I’m always done early. She, like most teachers, is fun to have as a teachers but she expects us to get our shit done. The class is a mix of juniors and seniors, so that’s to be expected.

3rd, Acting 2: Ahh Building 6, how you make my heart sing…and how you kill me with laughing fits. So far the things we have done in that class leaves me with a good feeling inside. The teacher (one of two that run the drama department) has started this thing where she would post quotes on the board, we write them down, take the time to TRY and think about them, and then we discuss them at the end of the week. And by God are they refreshing, it really makes you see things through the theatre eyes in a way, actually there is no way I can describe it. It’s one of those things you really have to experience for yourself, then again that’s really my opinion.

5th, Teachers Aid: To be truthful, I was actually aiming for T.V. Productions at first, but ended up here thanks to the schedule funk. But to be more truthful, I didn’t even know what class this was at first. Once I found out, I knew EXACTLY which teacher I would love to work for—Mrs. Johnson. She was my Creative Writing teacher in my sophomore year and by far one of my favorite teachers around. She is just sweet and caring, with her own…unique sense of humor; but we all played along. She is the teacher who granted me the nickname ‘Her Perkiness’, for my very cheerful disposition. No other words can describe how much I admire this awesome teacher who came from Canada. P.S. This is where I’m doing blogging and RP’s until further notice.

7th, Environmental Science: The class is actually really easy, the teacher is awesome, and sadly not much else to say. Well there is the fact that some of the kids in that class look at me like I’m from a different planet. Why? It’s just because I am either reading or writing, that’s it. To prove a point on something, I gave a simple, three sentence explination on how you can brew part of a rose into tea and it would help with colds. The reaction I got from the class was priceless, I was bombarded with questions—sad and silly questions—and I simply sat there and shook my head. Fun afternoon that was.

Now for even days~

2nd, English 3: This is a class I would consider as my favorite, even if it’s all vocabulary and an project already, it’s an awesome class. The teacher has her fun moments, but she is mostly 100% serious and I have a lot of respect for her because of it. Since it’s morning and lately I am having a hard time keeping myself going until later in the day, this class is a real kick in the butt so I’m wide awake for this.

4th, Chorus: It was funny on day one, a lot of people came up and asked me ‘You can sing?’ I know I’m NO WAY a wonderful singer, but as far as my standards go I do an ok job. My buddy there has been in that class pretty much all of her high school years I would think (too bad she’s graduating this year), and she’s a wonderful music person. She has been a great help trying to get me to sing better, as far as being louder and proper breathing. I’m starting to see that I need to work on a few things…but I’m getting better.
Like I said, 5th every day, so if you skipped it before then you better scroll back up. ^_^

6th, Math College Readiness: Aye math. My toughest subject, sometimes I wish I had a bit of Miss Snuggles math genius built into my brain…I am her granddaughter :P. But anyway, this class is for those who passed the math portion of FCAT last year, a mix of Geometry and Algebra (bleh). Again its mostly a easy class, the teacher is a bit jumbled up but she’s alright.

Whew, finally got this typed out (no computer equals major setbacks). I have a few more things planned out so expect more to come. And if anyone wants me to work on a specific topic, please leave me a note in the comments below. Now if you will excuse me…I finished just as the bell rung, yikes.

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